I get lonely sometimes, but who doesn't? It's all I think about honestly. Being able to hold hands with a man or talking to him late at night. I had that with "Denny", minus the fact that he was absolutely repulsive to me. I didn't even want him to look at me, that's how bad it was. But anyways, I know I used "Denny" as a boyfriend supplement. I talked to him ALL the time, we basically did everything together. But I couldn't give him what he wanted (which was love and a relationship) and I feel bad for not being better to him. In the end we broke up (figuratively speaking). And eventually I became very happy that we did.
This would probably make more sense to you if I explained what happened to make me feel this way. About two years ago I began dating a guy that I accedentally fell in love with, and he broke my heart. I haven't dated anyone since. It's been about a year and a half now that I have stayed single. And I'm ready for a romance now. I pray for it. Sometimes I think that there is a guy around a corner. But we keep going round and round on opposite sides so I never get to see who he is. I have crushes on guys, but I can't ever get myself to go for it, because every time I do go for somebody I end up at square one in the end. So now I am waiting, and waiting....oh...and waiting.
Hopefully he will come around soon.
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